I would be lying if I said that I hadn’t found the process of solo performance challenging and at times I have felt a little lost. Perhaps this is because my performance deals with something that is very emotional and difficult for me to discuss.However after much deliberation, a lot of editing and a hell of a lot of self doubt, I am proud to say that I now have a completed script that I am rather happy with.

There has been definite changes in my performance recently and though I have remained loyal to my decisions on topics and inspirations and I have altered the execution of them.Over the process I have considered a pupil/teacher role-play, I have contemplated playing a series of games with the audience and yes, these would all be appropriate in some manner but I’ve never been sure about how I would incorporate them into a final performance.

In my personal opinion, my strong point has always been writing … therefore I wanted to write my own piece. Something that fitted my intended playful beginning and then developing to an emotional end, whilst being in keeping with my theme of children’s stories, fairy tales and nursery rhymes. It was only when I sat down and began to write where it all seemed to fall into place. For the comical beginning I decided to stay true to the humour that I have with my friends, playful and witty, building on things that the majority of people can relate to and laugh at. I also found that the more I looked at fairy tales the easier I found it to make amusing comments about them.
For me the true difficulty when writing my script was to know how much was too much information in terms of when I was discussing the rape. I was well aware that there was a thin line between saying too much and not saying enough.

I can only hope that the script that I wrote allows that audience to feel a variety of different emotions. I wanted to create a slight feeling of nostalgia for when people were children, make them laugh and the stories they loved when they were younger as well as making them laugh at the party behaviour that the majority of us have gone through when we were older and finally I wanted to make them feel emotional and touched in listening to me discuss the most difficult experience of my life. I guess all I can do now is cross my fingers and perform my socks off.